“Finally, though, I got undressed and got in bed. I felt like praying, or something, when I was in bed, but I couldn’t do it. I can’t always pray when I feel like it. In the first place, I’m sort of an atheist. I like Jesus and all, but I don’t care too much for most of the other stuff in the Bible. Take the Disciples, for instance. They annoy the hell out of me, if you want to know the truth. They were all right after Jesus was dead and all, but while He was alive, they were about as much use to Him as a hole in the head. All they did was keep letting Him down. I like almost anybody in the Bible better than the Disciples. If you want to know the truth, the guy I like best in the Bible, next to Jesus, was that lunatic and all, that lived in the tombs and kept cutting himself with stones. I like him ten times as much as the Disciples, that poor bastard.”
J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye
And they came over unto the other side of the sea, into the country of the Gadarenes. And when he was come out of the ship, immediately there met him out of the tombs a man with an unclean spirit, Who had his dwelling among the tombs; and no man could bind him, no, not with chains: Because that he had been often bound with fetters and chains, and the chains had been plucked asunder by him, and the fetters broken in pieces: neither could any man tame him. And always, night and day, he was in the mountains, and in the tombs, crying, and cutting himself with stones. But when he saw Jesus afar off, he ran and worshipped him…
Mark 5: 1-6 (KJV)
If you are more of a lunatic than a disciple, don’t be dismayed.
There are two kinds of people in the world
—the lunatics and the disciples—
but they keep swapping places!
It’s as if we are all playing in some vast cosmic game.
The healers heal and the needy need, but the needy heal the healers and the healers need healing more than the needy.
You can be Christ to someone by being poor and vulnerable and in need like He was.
You can be Christ to someone by helping and healing as He did.
And when we see in faith that Christ is both in us and everyone we meet, giving or receiving, needy or fulfilling needs,
—lunatic or disciple!—
we see that our earth can be heaven.